Lyrics

All lyrics by Monika Bullette except for where noted.  All songs by Nero, ©&® 1996. All Right Reserved.

Sparkler

My lie down days are over
I can just stand here
There’s something I want you to do just for me
Remember what it is to be alone

It’s my doubting disease
Please say you’ll never want to leave me alone

It’s my hiccupping mind again
Please say you’ll never want to leave me alone

It took me hours to find your closed eyes
Almost persuaded
An open wound
Here’s a suggestion
Take it for what it is
When you taste blood you’re biting too hard

It’s my doubting disease
Please say you’ll never want to leave me alone

It’s my hiccupping mind again
Please say you’ll never want to leave me alone

I have much more beneath my skull than ideas to do to you
I can’t wait to see your greed disappear when I tell you
I won’t escape the one that follows me
Some inner choking bothers me

Don’t quit me baby
Don’t quit me baby
I cannot be alone

Soul Mint

Have you understood this
Burning itch inside
Can you sense the impulse
Cooling in my heart

Once somebody else
Willing to pretend
She’s torn between the being and feeling good

It has seized her up inside
It has made her finger die
Felt it crawl on her like lice
Felt it coax her into silence

Two faces of night
Lovely and lonely
Have you felt desire and regret

Have you love the gift
Better than the giver
You’re torn between the being and feeling good

It has seized you up inside
It has made your finger die
Felt it crawl on you like lice
Felt it coax you into silence

Lowdown

This is worried woman’s whiskey
This is frightened woman’s brandy
It makes courage
It makes courage

This is worried woman’s gun
This is frightened woman’s peace
It makes noise
It makes noise

You can worry just so much
This is worried woman’s friend
This is frightened woman’s brace
This is shattered woman’s face

It makes love
It makes love

Always a Full Moon

This bird in my hands
Is my favorite trick
Is it dead or alive
I’ll always be right
No matter what you say
It’s always a full moon
Until you start giving answers
My hands twitch with feathered friend
Dark and hungrily laughing
Once you say yes
You’ll say yes the rest of your life
Once you say dead
You’ll say
No matter what is said
I’ll always be
I’ll always be right
This bird in my hands
Is it dead or alive
I’ll always be right
I’ll always be right

Ushnisha

Your curses
They guide me
Your gliding monsters
Surround me surround me

Please close that hole in your face
That gapes so wide
I don’t do as I please
I take my memory with me

And you weren’t the one that turned me on when I was 17
And you couldn’t just ask
And you cannot take it back

Your nausea
It holds me
Safely first
Then sickly
Surround me surround me

And you wouldn’t know to turn the lights off when you watch

Where’d you go and why aren’t you still going

Pumpernickel

She’ll hate me more tomorrow than today
Would you say yes
She’ll hate me for sorrow than for spite
She’ll wander cold and lonesome
I don’t care
Why can’t you see
I couldn’t say no

I would not fear for pleasures undenied
I have no pride
She’ll hate me more tomorrow than today
Why can’t you see
I couldn’t say no

Dapple Grey

I waste my time on vanities
Spieglein Spieglein an der Wand
Wer ist die Schönste
Am diesem Land
Wer ist die Schönste?

These fingers are claws
They crawl across my brain
And see me

No more No more

Our horses are mired
This love’s yours alone
The moon hummed
It’s sweet
So slow

These terrible jaws
They look as though they frighten each other

No more No more
Dapple Grey

Everything’s that same shade of grey
The kind you see with your eyes closed

Hidebound

Please come you young cowards
And listen to my song
Please do not grow weary
I’ll not detain you long

It was here our pleasures ended and our troubles all begun
So it goes

The one who hounded me
Had found me long at last
Said “Where’d you think you’d hide?
You can’t escape your past”

So it goes

So keep your bellies up
Just as I have done

Cream

Come rest your head upon my lap my little lamb
Your filmy eyes your filmy eyes reflect
Your filmy eyes inherited the glaze
The mind’s its own place
The mind’s its own place my lamb

I gave to misery all I had
One short sweet past
One short sweet past the sacrifice

Your thin heart your clean hands won’t get you through tonight

Come rest your head upon my lap my little lamb
My love is closer to the ground

Digger

It comes back to the burning in my throat
And the cigarette that lives in your mouth

And the thick wrist pins me in once again
And my change is all over the floor
And you’re unsafe at any speed

But you’re saying I’m buying myself back

Mel’s Song

Do you love an apple
Do you love a pear
Do you love a laddy with curly brown hair
Oh yes I love him
I can’t deny him
I’ll be with wherever he goes

You know I’ll always be there
You know I’ll never go far
You know you can’t get rid of me
Why even try
Deny
What it was
Deny

You’ll never know to walk the line
You’ll never see the ring of fire
You’ll never know me
Darlin’ you know my darling it’s true
Deny
What it was
Deny

Lamprey

Don’t do it again
Don’t do it again
You’re the one who keeps it
Don’t do it some more
Don’t do it some more
I told you once nice before

I’m just a sin away
I’m just a sin away
I’m so close

Don’t do it again
Don’t keep going
I can’t take it anymore

I’m just a sin away
I’m just a sin away

You never didn’t not start this
I never could continue

Don’t do it again
You’re the one who laps it up
Don’t do it some more
I told you once nice before

You never didn’t not start this
Don’t make me regret telling you
I put my tongue against your lids
Until you see it my way

Matlock

You could go on hating one person at a time
I prefer to hate you all at once the same

You could go on painting your face to hide the scars beneath the lie you call yourself
You could go on taking them one by one by one home to mom hoping she won’t see the stinking filthy pig that he is
You could go on wishing you’d spend the night with me wrapped in sheets sticky sheets stiff with your inexperience

You could go on hating one person at a tim
I prefer to hate you all at once the same
One name
One guilt
One shame
One strangulation
One time is not enough for me

Squeeze the White Ball

My best is locked away
While I rot quietly
My best is locked away
I outlive my selfish selfish selfish

I took the hand of a confidence man
A self taught man
A confidence man
He showed me with white smiles what’s not right with prison

That silver tongued Satan
That silver tongued Satan
I grasped at each second
Trying to suck it dry suck it dry

That confidence man
He left dry
He left me with crumpled bed
And worshipping prison worshipping prison

Beginnings

lyrics by Joe Castro

What I am is unfamiliar
Can I be, face in the mirror
Leave me alone, with my endeavor
I’ll hold my own, when it comes together

Let it go, let it go, I just don’t know
What it is that you are after
Let it go, let it go, I just don’t know
Are you the one that I am after

You ask me, what I’m saying
I’m the one, you’ve been betraying
Through the years, built up inside me
Why hold the tears, why not let them blind me

Let it go, let it go, I just don’t know
What it is that you are after
Let it go, let it go, I just don’t know
Are you the one that I am after

Last Time I Laughed

lyrics by Joe Castro

I watched you fall apart
Day after day, before my eyes
You never once looked back, you never realized
And now it’s all the same, some people stay betrayed
You said I’d see the light but in darkness I stay

And it’s gone, it’s gone away
What was once yesterday
Disappears

Another broken promise
Another night you hid in shame
Another week of hunger, you’ve got yourself to blame
I see you home at night, with your back against the wall
I’ll do nothing, I’ll do nothing at all

And it’s gone, it’s gone away
What was once yesterday
Disappears